This is not a blogpost. This is a callout post against myself.

It’s been a few weeks since Art Fight wrapped up, and I learned a lot about myself in that time. Specifically, that I REALLY overthink my own characters, and I really shouldn’t. (And also, Art Fight was a ton of fun! Chcek the previous blog post to go to my page!)

Many of you have probably noticed that I’ve been making new takes on old characters lately. The more astute of you will notice that a lot of them are the same characters in different looks. And the really observant among you will ask, “Is Smug okay? This is NOT healthy.”

For the few of you that cared enough to ask that, thank you. No, I’m not alright. I’ve been heavily insecure about many own characters for a very long time. Despite everything I’ve said and done so far, I can’t really feel “secure” about my own roster. I’m always afraid someone is gonna point fingers at my characters and use them against me or something. Anxiety is fun, give it a try sometimes! (That was sarcasm, please DON’T.)

Though now that I sit here and type this, maybe it’s time that I moved on. Take a break and just focus on a few characters at a time. There’s been a few I’ve been painting and drawing lately that I really did enjoy revisiting. And looking back on it, maybe I wasn’t doing anything incorrect.

Maybe I was just denying myself my own potential for...I don’t even know. “Lore” reasons? I have a pinball demon fight a twelve-year-old and LOSING, for crying out loud! And here we go again, the cycle of self-abuse keeps on turning. So what I’m gonna do is take a break from myself for a while and just let myself post art that I was proud of making.

This does mean less frequent uploads, but that for me is a good thing. I don’t want to rush myself when there’s nobody here to do so.

Stay tuned for more better art, people. I’m done playin’ games. Says the guy who’s immediately going to boot up Deep Rock after this.